So clichÃ©d but so true â€“ time really starts to fly when you have kids! Can you believe Claire was born two months ago?
Itâ€™s been a really wonderful two months! A friend asks me how I was feeling about going from one kid to two, and my response is that I feel like Claire just slipped into the fray. Itâ€™s like sheâ€™s always been here.
Letâ€™s do a quick â€œmeâ€ update and then Iâ€™ll do a Claire update!
Mind After Baby
Like I said, Iâ€™m doing really well. I donâ€™t feel overwhelmed and nutty like I did after Henry. I know how to do this baby thing, and I think I can do it pretty well, so weâ€™re surviving. Also, the lack of sleep isnâ€™t impacting me like it did last time. I was CRAZY SLEEP DEPRIVED after Henry. This time â€“ not so much. Sleep deprivation does terrible things to your outlook and mood, so Iâ€™m thankful.
The hardest part of my day is doing bedtime with two kids when I donâ€™t have other adult help. That really does me in. Henry becomes a typical needy toddler at bedtime, and Claire usually has a screaming fit, and I end up feeling pulled in two directions. Thatâ€™s the worst feeling â€“ when I canâ€™t comfort anyone and everyone ends up upset.
(Henry made us all necklaces!)
The other thing that Iâ€™m struggling is a life-work balance. Iâ€™ve always felt like that phrase was total bullshit anyway, but now Iâ€™m really struggling to find enough space in my schedule for all the work that I want to do. I can cook, clean, exercise, or even read a book while being â€œonâ€ but I canâ€™t work. We donâ€™t have additional childcare for Claire at this point but it may be necessary at some point. I feel perpetually behind!
Body After Baby
Iâ€™m really proud of the things my post-baby body is doing! Iâ€™m back to running and even did a 4.0 mile race. I feel pretty strong and capable. And Iâ€™m really, really enjoying having that â€˜me timeâ€™ again. Itâ€™s also a great no-kids social outlet for me because I occasionally run with my girlfriends.
Iâ€™m still breastfeeding, although I actually breastfeed half the time and do pumped bottles the other half. I do this for all the reasons that I exclusively pumped with Henry â€“ I find public breastfeeding awkward, I need the ability to leave Claire with a bottle, I still have to use a shield because of flat nipples, and â€“ quite frankly â€“ I just donâ€™t love it. Iâ€™m owning all those feelings (instead of feeling bad and guilty about it like last time) and just rolling with it. Itâ€™s nice to be able to breastfeed in the privacy of my home â€“ I actually enjoy it and appreciate how much easier it is than pumping. But pumping works for me, too, and I appreciate all the benefits that pumping allows. I donâ€™t feel as hostile about pumping as I did after Henry, and Iâ€™m just trying to chug along until the end date that Iâ€™ve set in my head.
As far as post-baby weight loss goesâ€¦ itâ€™s going! Iâ€™ve lost about 25 pounds since giving birth, which means I have another 15 or so to go. Iâ€™m trying to eat mindful portions and not go nuts on the chocolate and wine, and Iâ€™m losing about a pound a week. Slow but steady progress.
And a Claire Update
Okay â€“ the fun part!
Gosh, I love her SO MUCH. She is terribly adorable and so sweet. She is incredibly easy. I feel very blessed to have such an easy kid (I prayed really hard for a good baby!). She LOVES to smile and cracks a big grin whenever she sees me, the Husband, or Henry. Sheâ€™s also started to coo and squeal and will â€œtalkâ€ to you. Sheâ€™s getting better at tracking people with her eyes and will turn her head to watch you leave the room.
She is CHUNKY and I love it. Henry was always a skinny kid per the growth charts, but Claire is a chunker. Sheâ€™s busting out of her 3 month clothes and has all these amazingly awesome rolls on her inner thighs. I die.
Henry v. Claire:
She is an award-winning sleeper, too! She wakes up about twice a night to eat â€“ at 1:30 and 5:30. Then she does a light sleep until around 7:30 (so I end up being woken up a few times, but itâ€™s not a big production to console her). She goes down easily, and Iâ€™m trying to implement some â€˜pre-sleep trainingâ€™ techniques (like not always rushing to her immediately and patting her stomach v. picking her up to calm her) to try to move the process along even faster. The twice-a-night wake-up thing isnâ€™t TOO bad but, obviously, I canâ€™t wait to sleep through the night again.
Henry is LOVING Claire, too. He is a great big brother. He sings to her and gives her pacifiers and like to pet her head. He has even given her a few bottles!
Once, he asked me if we could leave Claire at home while we went to the playground, and I died laughing before explaining that, no, we can never leave Claire alone at home. He looked disappointed but quickly rebounded. Thatâ€™s the only real sign of jealously that Iâ€™ve seen. Itâ€™s been much, much better than I expected overall.
Hereâ€™s to many more awesome months! <3