I have written this post a million times in my head, but now that itâ€™s time to put my words to the screen, Iâ€™m at a loss of what to say. I guess I will start at the beginning.
When I started my first blog nearly five years ago â€“ See Bride Run, remember those days? â€“ I was just 24 years old. My fiancÃ© and I had just moved to Orlando so he could go to graduate school, and I was working at home as an urban planner. It was very hard to meet people, and I had no one to support me in my quest to maintain my new healthy lifestyle, so I started a blog. You see, I had been a loyal blog reader for months, and one day, I realized, â€œHmmm! Maybe I can blog, too.â€ And so it began.
I never realized what my decision to start a blog would do to my life. Because of this blog â€“ and because YOU read â€“ my outlook on life changed completely. I am not perfect nor did I ever pretend to be. I wrote about my struggles as much as my triumphs. I shared things with you that I hesitate to share with people in my real life. As a result, through blogging, I began a more positive, happier, and healthier person. This space made me who I am, and for that, I am eternally grateful.
But the best thing to come from Healthy Tipping Point is, undoubtedly, Operation Beautiful. Did you know that, in the four years since the site began, Iâ€™ve received well over 13,000 notes? Iâ€™ve gotten a note from every continent! I understand that not everyone â€˜getsâ€™ the movement, but it has touched and transformed the lives of literally thousands of women. Iâ€™ve received three e-mails from people who were on their way to commit suicide when they found a note â€“ and because of a kind word from a stranger, they halted their plan. And all of that wouldâ€™ve never happened if my wonderful readers hadnâ€™t supported the cause.
Because of blogging, Iâ€™ve written three books. Iâ€™ve had some opportunities to do some amazing things. Iâ€™ve met incredible people who also had blogs (especially Kath, Tina, Theodora, Monica, Gina, Meghann, Anne, Julie, and Emily). Iâ€™ve met some of the sweetest, kindest readers. People that really and truly cared about me and my family. Since starting my blog, Iâ€™ve gotten married, moved to another city, started a small business, and had a baby. What a slice of my life to share! Such big things have happened to me, all while I recorded in on the Internet for the world to see.
But, alas, everything changes. I have spent too much time over the last few months feeling stressed to the max, wondering how to juggle it all. Professional blogging â€“ and by that, I mean blogging for a wide audience, with the expectation to publish multiple times a day â€“ is not necessarily incredibly time-consuming, but it is very, very emotionally and mentally demanding. Quite honesty, I wear too many hats between HTP, Operation Beautiful, speaking events, freelance writing, helping to run the clinic, and â€“ above all else â€“ being a mother.
My friend Heather recently posted on her Facebook wall: â€œEverything single thing cannot be a priority. Something has got to give.â€ And that is how I came to this (very, very hard) decision.
Iâ€™m stepping back â€“ not away! â€“ from blogging to focus on other things in my life â€“ namely, being a mother, running Operation Beautiful, and supporting our family business. Instead of seeing me two or three times a day, you can expect to see me once or twice a week. I have blogged for so longâ€¦ nearly five yearsâ€¦ that I canâ€™t imagine walking away completely. I think about giving birth to Henryâ€™s little brother or sister and not being able to tell my amazing, wonderful, caring, thoughtful readers, and I start to tear up! Maybe after a while, Iâ€™ll return in full force. Maybe not.
But for now, a step back is exactly what I â€“ and my family â€“ needs. I do want to say that absolutely nothing is wrong in my life. No illness in the family, no marriage strife. Iâ€™m doing this because I love my life and value the things that I have. Iâ€™m doing this because I understand now, more than ever, what being healthy really means – a true balance in all aspects of life. Iâ€™m doing this because I look at Henry and I know, without a doubt, where my priorities are.
Thank you, from the bottom of my heart, for reading Healthy Tipping Point. I hope youâ€™ll stick around through these changes. I canâ€™t possibly express how much my readers have meant to me. I will never get the pleasure to meet most of you, but from the bottom of my heart, thank you, thank, thank you. Your support made me a stronger, happier, healthier person, and I will never forget what your readership gave to me.
See you on the other side!