The other day, I tried to wrap my hands around Henryâ€™s torso and discovered that my fingertips no longer touched. He is getting so big and packinâ€™ on the ounces like itâ€™s his job!
As of yesterday, Henry is eight weeks old. Itâ€™s crazy that eight weeks have already passedâ€¦ but at the same time, itâ€™s nuts that ONLY eight weeks have passed. So many changes!
Mind After Baby â€“ Month 2
The biggest emotional change is that parenting now seems to be part of my normal lifeâ€¦ and I really, really like it. A few family members have asked me what I think of being a mommy, and my response is always that is way better than I thought it would be. As Iâ€™ve written numerous times, I wasnâ€™t really too much of a â€˜kid personâ€™ prior to coaching Girls on the Run, and I was even less of a â€˜baby person.â€™ Honestly, I secretly thought babies were pretty boring. But I guess that only applies to other peopleâ€™s babies because my baby seems like so much fun! Henry and I spend hours just hanginâ€™ out and playing, and it is always the best part of my day.
I have noticed that my mood is intensely influenced by how much sleep I get. You really cannot underestimate the power of sleep deprivation. The nights that Henry has more than two feedings are hellish, and I am so crabby and irritable the next day. If he only feeds twice, I usually feel pretty normal in the morning. More often than not, I donâ€™t feel tired at all, which is something that I never expected I would say! Moms (and dads) really do have superpowers when it comes to functioning on less-than-ideal sleep.
Another surprisingly realization: I am way less uptight about Henry than anticipated. I donâ€™t worry about him to excess (although I do still wake up in the middle of the night and make sure he is breathing); I trust other people besides the Husband to hold and care for him; and I generally feel very relaxed about parenting. Given my personality type, I didnâ€™t think it would go down like this at all. Iâ€™m not sure why I feel so laidback, but it is very nice, and I hope the feeling lasts. Maybe itâ€™s because Henry is such an easy baby.
Body After Baby â€“ Month 2
Last month, I wrote about how my body isnâ€™t bouncing back quite as fast as I hoped it would, and that general sentiment still stands. Now, I want to clear something up because a few people have remarked that they think Iâ€™m being hard on myself about the baby weight. Iâ€™m not being hard on myself at all; Iâ€™m sorry if my writing came off like that.
Iâ€™ve noticed that the â€˜healthy livingâ€™ blog community seems to shy away from talking about weight loss. I sometimes struggle to write about weight loss, too, because I do believe in focusing on health over weight and that how you feel about yourself is vastly more important than how you look. And in this blog genre, itâ€™s almost as if writing about wanting to lose weight means you hate your body, have low self-esteem, or are going to use gimmicky diet tricks to achieve your goal. But, quite frankly, this correlation isnâ€™t true. Thereâ€™s really nothing wrong with wanting to lose weight that youâ€™ve gained in a healthy way. It doesnâ€™t mean you hate your current shape or are skipping meals. It doesnâ€™t mean you think youâ€™re currently unhealthy or undesirable or that there is something wrong with you.
Iâ€™m not going to sit here and say that I donâ€™t want to lose this baby weight. I would love to lose this baby weight! But at the same time, that doesnâ€™t mean that Iâ€™m unhappy with my body. Actually, in many ways, Iâ€™m thrilled with my current body. Itâ€™s been eight weeks since the birth of Henry and Iâ€™ve already been back to running, swimming, and cycling for a month (with the blessing of my doctor). I plan to do a triathlon at the end of August. I feel great while exercising and working out energizes me. And I feel like exercising is in balance with all areas of my life. In terms of post-partum fitness, thatâ€™s everything that I hoped for while I was pregnant!
This month, I began to really clean up my diet. I donâ€™t believe in â€˜dietingâ€™ and would never cut calories while breastfeeding (major no-no if you want to maintain supply), but Iâ€™ve been more mindful of what I put in my mouth and why. I was struggling with eating far too much sugar, especially when I was sleepy, but Iâ€™ve pretty much put a stop to that. Basically, I trying to eat a balanced diet while packing in as many nutrients as I can. Itâ€™s been very helpful to keep easy-to-eat healthy convenience foods in the fridge, like boiled eggs and Anne Pâ€™s Peanut Butter Bars. And Iâ€™ve stopped buying foods that I tend to overdo it on â€“ no more chips and pints of ice cream in my grocery cart. If I want a treat, I can take the time to bake something or have dessert when we dine out.
Most importantly, eating well has kept my energy up and allowed me to be a better momma. And sloooowly but surely, Iâ€™m starting to see improvement on the scale. I am only weighing myself once a month, and I was so proud to step on the scale at the gym on Sunday and discover that Iâ€™ve lost another three pounds compared to Month 1. This means Iâ€™ve only got eleven or so pounds to go to my pre-baby weight, although I donâ€™t really expect to reach my pre-baby weight while nursing. For a new momma, I feel pretty hot.
Iâ€™m very excited to write the Month 3 body update because the next few weeks will be focused on triathlon training! I am doing a sprint triathlon in three weeks and cannot wait to â€˜raceâ€™ again. Iâ€™m focused more on finishing than my time and am really looking forward to the experience.
To conclude this post, here is a cute but short video of Henry. He really likes it when I ask him if heâ€™s a crazy baby.
My little cutie is growing up so fast! Iâ€™m so glad heâ€™s in my life.