Today, I finally conquered Superflow at Y2Yoga. Rumored to be the hardest yoga class in all of Charlotte, I normally walk out/drop into child’s pose at least three times during the 90 minutes class. One of post-marathon non-mileage fitness goals was to make it through an entire Supuerflow class without taking a break – I’m so proud of myself for finally doing it.
I have to say that the beginning of class was rough. The negative voice in my head was in FULL FORCE today. People often assume that I never, ever have negative self-doubt or Fat Talk (because of Operation Beautiful), but I’m still just a normal human being. Everyone struggles with feeling like they aren’t good enough at one point or another. And Superflow class is filled with very fit, very pretty, very flexible women with hundreds of dollars of stylish yoga clothes on. It can be intimidating!
So the stories started in my head: You aren’t a yogi. You’re body isn’t looking all that good post-marathon. Shouldn’t have eaten those Christmas cookies! That shirt is really unflattering. Your back hurts. You can’t do this. Superflow is too hard. Blah, blah, blah, blah.
It went on and on for at least 15 minutes until I finally realized what I was going and demanded that I turn off the story. I don’t even really believe those things – why am I thinking them?
Once I shut myself up, I was able to have a very happy, very relaxing, very awesome yoga class! I left feeling positive and good about myself.
It’s so helpful for me to see negative self-talk as a story. It’s a story you tell yourself, and then you will begin to fulfill it to make the story true. On the flip side, you can tell yourself a positive story, and then you will have a positive experience.
How about a story about my awesome lunch?
Oh hummus. I love thee.
A hummus and spinach sammie with an edamame, feta, and craisin salad.
I went back for seconds. So good!
Do you struggle with negative storytelling? About what? How do you flip it?
i <3 roots hummus! yum. try their spinach kind!
i still struggle a lot with negative stories and thoughts. it's especially tough coming out of an eating disorder, but when it happens i stop whatever i'm doing, look at myself in the mirror and say, "STOP!" out loud, and then list off positive affirmations. 🙂