Here Comes the Sun?

on October 17, 2009

I woke up to a chill in the air!

It’s currently 62 degrees (don’t laugh!) and I cannot wait to wear jeans today! 🙂

I made the ugliest batch of Flax French Toast for breakfast:

I’m not sure why these came out so ugly, but they tasted good! I had trouble flipping them in the pan this morning. Guess I was still asleep.

The weather matches my mood – I feel quiet and a little gloomy. I mentioned a few days back that I had some abnormal test results at the doctor’s and had to go back in for further tests. It’s been weighing heavily on my heart. I’m not looking for sympathy at all… just wanted to talk about it.

In college, I had a friend die in a motorcycle accident and it really changed the way I looked at life. He was the nicest person ever, and it struck me as so unfair… then I realized that life and death isn’t fair at all, ever! Shortly after, two of my good girlfriends were diagnosed with cancer (leukemia and ovarian, respectively). I stopped thinking I’m invincible because I’m young a long time ago.

Situations like this just remind me to live my life fully every day. It sounds so corny, but it’s true. Good health is a precious thing, isn’t it? Most of us don’t appreciate it until its threatened! Until I find out differently, I’m going to marathoning, laughing, loving, eating, yoga-ing, and LIVING life to the fullest. That’s all I really can do. I have to look on the sunny side of life.

I’m off to Jacksonville for the night. My mom is already there, and I’m so looking forward to seeing her. I’ll be back with road trip details later – and then there’s a WEDDING tonight! What better way to celebrate life, right? :) Stay tuned.

XOXO

{ 66 comments }

Jessica October 17, 2009, 8:44 am
I believe in the power of prayer and I want you to know that even though I dont know you I am going to pray for you. Things are ok in the end….remember that…..
I am going to a wedding tonight myself!!! 🙂
jen trinque October 17, 2009, 8:47 am
I believe in prayer, too, and the idea that when you focus on good health and think positively about it, good health is more likely to come your way. I’ll be sending good vibes your way 🙂
Lizzy October 17, 2009, 8:47 am
I couldn’t agree with you more. Scares like that(and hopefully it is just a scare and nothing more serious) definitely make us realize how much more we should live our lives. We seem to live like we will be here forever sometimes, and it isn’t fair to ourselves.

Love the attitude, hope everything goes okay with the results, have an awesome day in Jacksonville and at the wedding!! 🙂
Nicole October 17, 2009, 8:48 am
Caitlin, I will keep you in my thoughts. I hope everything turns out okay.

After my friend was in a life threatening accident about 2 months ago, it also changed the way I look at life. I stopped worrying about the little things and focus on increasing my own happiness and making others around me smile as much as possible as well.

Have fun 🙂
Andee (Runtolive) October 17, 2009, 8:52 am
I completely agree with you-life is too short to not live it out fully. It’s nice to see you living out your dream and doing everything you love. Have a great time at the wedding!
Erin October 17, 2009, 8:56 am
I had a scare recently, so I can say that I understand and sympathize. I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers. Please take care, and keep us all posted.
Matt October 17, 2009, 9:10 am
I hope the test results turn out ok.

I totally agree with you about living life to the fullest. Life is too short to not enjoy it!
Gina October 17, 2009, 9:11 am
Caitlin, I know exactly what you are going through right now. I actually have to go and see my doctor again next week because of some results. You will be in my thoughts, and I hope everything turns out okay.
- caitlin October 17, 2009, 1:40 pm
  i hope you are OK too!!
Niki (Running In Pink) October 17, 2009, 9:13 am
I’ll be keeping you in my prayers, Caitlin. If there is one thing that’s certain, it’s that life is unpredictable! It’s too bad that it takes a health scare or a tragedy to remind us to live life to the fullest potential we can, but it’s easy to take things like our health (or our loved one’s health) for granted. I’m hoping everything turns out okay for you!! Have fun at the wedding tonight!
Courtney October 17, 2009, 9:13 am
I’m going to a wedding tonight too…can’t wait to be surrounded by people celebrating love! I just might splurge and get a new dress this morning..why not!
Courtney
Adventures in Tri-ing
Susan October 17, 2009, 9:15 am
That’s a wonderful reminder Caitlin!! I also try to always remind myself that no one is going to look after my health but me. My mom was diagnosed with breast cancer when she was 22. The only reason they found it was because she was persistent with the doctors that something was wrong. I hope you’re doing okay – enjoy your Saturday!! 😀
Jennifer October 17, 2009, 9:17 am
Hi Caitlin,
I’m going through the same thing right now and am talking to the doctor about the results on Monday. Stay positive and keep doing what you do! You will be in my thoughts as I go for a run today on this beautiful Fall day in New England.
Jennifer
- caitlin October 17, 2009, 1:40 pm
  so many of us are having strange results! i hope you are OK. 🙁
Erin October 17, 2009, 9:19 am
I hope everything is going okay. Staying positive is the best thing you can do until there’s more news.
Maria October 17, 2009, 9:27 am
It’s scary when you don’t know what’s going on with your own health! I’ll keep you in my prayers. Hope all works out for the best!
Marina October 17, 2009, 9:29 am
I know how you feel. I always thought I was strong to hear bad news about my health, but when I actually did, I was so broken. Thank god it all turned out to be nothing. I’ll cross my fingers for you, and keep you in my thoughts. Enjoy your day. Worrying won’t help a thing 😉
Jana October 17, 2009, 9:33 am
62 degrees sounds amazing! perfect running weather! It is amazing how lucky we all are if we just look around and count our blessings 🙂 I agree that it is important to recognize this each day and be thankful for each moment 🙂
Peanut Butter Bliss October 17, 2009, 9:34 am
I hope all is well Caitlin (im sure it is!!) Just enjoy life one day at a time and have no regrets 😀

I wish it was 62 degrees here…
Stacey October 17, 2009, 9:51 am
Glad you are keeping your head up 🙂 I am thankful everyday for my health..I say ‘Most people my age aren’t doing things like this, go me!’ It feels great! Brrrrr, it’s freezing down here (eh hem 53) and I’m only in NC!!
Kirsten October 17, 2009, 9:55 am
I’m thinking of you and hoping for the best with your results! I know firsthand how stressful medical stuff can be.
Kelly October 17, 2009, 10:03 am
It’s amazing how many of us are having weird test results reading all this comments- I too am in the same situation, have to take the morning off work on Tuesday to get a stomach ultrasound…fun times. You are right about us not being invincible because we are young.
I am also going to a wedding tonight, have fun at yours!
Bridget October 17, 2009, 10:15 am
You will be in my thoughts. I hope that everything turns out to be okay. Keep looking on the sunny side!

Losing someone changes the life outlook so much. Life *is* too short–it can be over at any time. It’s something that’s always close to my heart, too. None of us are invincible, and that is a fact that we all need to remember.

Hope that you have a blast at the wedding!
Megs October 17, 2009, 10:17 am
Caitlin,
2 months ago I was told that a test came back abnormal and the end result was having to a have a procedure to remove lesions they found. It’ll be ok in the end. Its scary and hard but you have to just deal one day at a time and trust your doctor!!
Estela @ Weekly Bite October 17, 2009, 10:24 am
Have a great time at the wedding 🙂
emily October 17, 2009, 10:25 am
I know what you mean about appreciating life. We lost a friend to an overdose a few years ago and I’d like to think it’s made everyone in our circle a little more careful. I hope your test results turn out ok, and have a great time at the wedding!
Jessie (Vegan-minded) October 17, 2009, 10:25 am
That cold front is supposed to be reaching Miami by tomorrow, and I am so excited for a little cool air (I know how you feel about wanting to wear jeans).

Try not to worry too much about your test results at this point, an inconclusive result does not necessarily mean something is wrong. You are right though, all we can do is try to live life to the fullest each day, which is something you seem to do already. Hopefully, you will be able to enjoy your weekend, without stressing too much about it. Sending positive vibes your way 🙂
Tina October 17, 2009, 10:27 am
I’ll keep you in my thoughts! It’s great to stay so optimistic, and just keep doing everything you do!
Nicole October 17, 2009, 10:38 am
Please know you’re in my thoughts. When Dennis got sick it was like a slap in the face for both of us. Now that he’s better we try not to take life for granted. Enjoy your weekend, seeing your mom, and the wedding.
Hangry Pants October 17, 2009, 10:57 am
Sorry about the test results. I’ve been going through a similar situation lately, and like you, I’m trying to get all my doctor stuff in while I have insurance. 🙁 Have fun at the wedding.
Jessica @ How Swet October 17, 2009, 10:57 am
Sending good vibes your way! I’m sure everything will be ok. You have the best attitude about this. I admire you!
Julie October 17, 2009, 11:04 am
I hope eveything turns out okay for you. Try not to worry your self too much and have a blast at the wedding.
Rachel October 17, 2009, 11:11 am
I really believe in the power of positive thinking. I too will be thinking of ya on my run on this beautiful sunny fall day up in Canada’s capital, sending positive energy your way. 🙂 Enjoy the wedding and time with friends and family!
Rachel October 17, 2009, 11:11 am
ooh, and I posted that at 11:11…so that must be good luck!
Michelle October 17, 2009, 11:12 am
sending prayers and positive vibes your way. enjoy today.
Jenna October 17, 2009, 11:24 am
having fun at the wedding! it is so true about living your life to the fullest each day 🙂
jenna
Erica October 17, 2009, 11:31 am
So true- so easy to take all of the wonderful things we’re each blessed with for granted. I hope everything is ok with you! Enjoy yourself at the wedding
Evan Thomas October 17, 2009, 11:54 am
I hope the test results come back well.
Marisa (Trim The Fat) October 17, 2009, 12:27 pm
I agree, Caitlin. Unfortunately, sometimes it takes tragedy to help us realize how precious our time on this earth is. We should be thankful, grateful and try to live our best life!

Have fun at the wedding !
Sending you positive vibes for the test results 🙂
Joelle (The Pancake Girl) October 17, 2009, 12:32 pm
Ah, you and me both my dear- life is very precious. Have a great weekend!
BethT @ Pretty By The Bay October 17, 2009, 12:35 pm
I totally agree with you. Life is short and unexpected. I hope your results turn out fine and you continue to appreciate life. You certainly seem to live it to the fullest and spread a lot of joy.
Diana October 17, 2009, 12:38 pm
I hope everything is okay.
Have a great time 🙂
Jolene (www.everydayfoodie.ca) October 17, 2009, 12:40 pm
I hope everything is okay with your test results.

I love weddings!! Have a great time!!
Laura W October 17, 2009, 12:45 pm
I hope that everything turns out okay. I know exactly what you mean about being at an age where you appreciate your health and don’t feel invicible anymore. I had a rough week at work, saw a man fall off of his motorcycle and have been having car problems, but I just keep reminding myself of the blessings and love that I have in my life. Enjoy your time with your Mom tonight! <3
michelle October 17, 2009, 12:58 pm
FL girl here- I can’t wait to wear jeans tonight too! You have a great attitude about things. You’re in my thoughts and prayers with your health. Live life to the fullest, every single day.
Kat (Kat's Daily Plate) October 17, 2009, 1:15 pm
I think your motto is one we should all strive to live by. And I am praying that you get good news the next time you go back for your results! xoxo
angieinatlanta October 17, 2009, 1:18 pm
Ugly French toast!? What are you talking about? I think it looks delicious!

Great message in this post – you’re totally right; EVERY healthy body is a beautiful body!
Adriana October 17, 2009, 1:22 pm
I know how bad it sucks to wait for test results. I haven’t done this in a long time but I will say a rosary for you tonight and for everyone that is in the same situation. I hope everything turns out ok.
Cynthia (It All Changes) October 17, 2009, 1:31 pm
I am so sorry for your loss and for your worry. YOu are right that we aren’t invincible and learning that at a young age is hard but a good thing. I learned that too early on and it reminds me to take good care of myself. I’ll be praying for you as you wait for the test results.

I have to giggle just a bit because of your weather. It’s interesting to find out what different people find chilly. I had a friend from Alaska in college who used to walk around in T-shirts with flurries. It baffled me but was normal to her.
Runningwriter October 17, 2009, 1:44 pm
Keep you chin up Caitlin, lots of us are sending positive thoughts your way and I’m sending you hugs as well.
Enjoy the wedding tonight!
Tay October 17, 2009, 1:53 pm
Stay strong!! It could just be a little blip and nothing big. No reason to stress until you get the actual results.

Have a wonderful night!
Molly @vegandorm October 17, 2009, 2:00 pm
Health is definitely not something to take for granted…I hope everything works out okay.
I feel you on the weather – here it was over 100 degrees all week until today it got down to the mid-70s. Love it!
Emily October 17, 2009, 2:55 pm
Caitlin, I’ll be keeping your in my thoughts.

About two months I had the biggest scare. They found cancerous cells during my annual check up. I thought I was 21 and that didn’t apply to me. I had to go back for further testing and was assured it’s OK and that it’s actually normal considering my circumstances.

I hope everything is OK!!
Jenny Eastwood@ JennyLikesToRun, On a mission to run a marathon to fundraise for The Breast Cancer Foundation October 17, 2009, 3:21 pm
I hope your test results are ok… but until then, I love your attitude 🙂 So many people need to understand the importance of looking at the glass half full rather than empty.
Even though times may be tough, why make them harder by being negative?
Being negative won’t change the outcome and will only bring people down further. I’m really glad that you’re so positive 🙂 it inspires me.
Lindsay October 17, 2009, 3:32 pm
I couldn’t agree with you more. It’s so important to remain positive and keep on living life to the fullest. I hope everything is okay… Have a safe trip and have fun at the wedding!
Kate October 17, 2009, 3:58 pm
Also dealing with some abnormal test results. Just trying to stay as positive as possible and to keep in mind that I’m able to take very, very good care of my body, regardless. Keeping you in my thoughts!
Melissa October 17, 2009, 4:29 pm
I had an abnormal pap when I was 21 and it scared the crap out of me. I ended up having to get a biopsy (which really wasn’t too bad) and just a couple of days later was told that everything was a-ok! You have great spirits about whatever you are going through and is important to try and stay positive, as you are doing! 🙂 I believe in prayer as well, I will shoot some prayers up for ya! Have fun tonight!
Ashleigh October 17, 2009, 7:31 pm
Thinking about you and praying for you! Things will turn out just fine 🙂
Laurel October 17, 2009, 10:54 pm
Welcome to Jax… apparently you weren’t warned about the Picadilly’s here! I trust everything will turn out fine. My blood tests are usually so out of whack… At my last appt my dr. did bloodwork and before I left his words were “I’ll call you if anything is abnormally abnormal”…lol Take care!
Stacie October 17, 2009, 11:25 pm
Caitlin, Just wanted to say that I think you will be great but if you do get less welcome news, you will have friends in the same situation. I KNOW (personally) your test is a big worry but hopefully nothing more serious than that– I had breast cancer at 34 and I am fine 10+yrs later so even the not-so-desirable news is manageable. Just reach out to those who have been there and done that–there are more of us than you can imagine and we want to help–and you can be a huge help if your test results are negative too since you can be a big POSITIVE influence on other young women that have some surprising test results–go Caitlin!
- caitlin October 18, 2009, 8:07 am
  thank you 🙂
Stacie October 17, 2009, 11:28 pm
Caitlin, I forgot to mention that I have a PhD in science and although I am not a medical Dr, I am a Dr. And, I have access to studies and articles published on any situation and I’d be glad to send you any information that would be helpful.
Paige @ Running Around Normal October 18, 2009, 8:36 am
Hey hun, sorry about the abnormal test results. I got some back in January of 2007, and the waiting and thinking up all these horrible things that could happen to me was the worst time of my life (well..one of the worst.) I know I’ve posted this quote before but this is where “I’ve had a lot of bad experiences in my life, some of which have actually happened.” Mark Twain quote really helped me out.
Sarah @ See Sarah Eat October 18, 2009, 2:21 pm
I’m praying for you Caitlin. I hope whatever happens you are able to keep that mindset, positivity really does go a long way. Have a good day, love ya!
Emilytoo October 19, 2009, 8:32 am
I just wanted to say that 62 degrees is serious business!
That’s what it was in Baton Rouge on Saturday too. I’m lovin’ the “cold” weather!
Amy October 19, 2009, 9:17 am
I’ll be thinkig of you, and hoping everything turns out okay!

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