I went on my first week-day AM run in AGES! It felt so good to wake up with the sun and get my workout out of the way.
Before I left, I had my pre-run snack (gotta fuel up!):
I did a 5.0 mile loop in 55 minutes. I burned approximately 400 calories (80 calories/mile). I really, really miss my heart rate monitor. The Polar service center better fix it and mail it back to me ASAP!
I intended to do 4.0 miles, but I was totally in the zone and missed the turn-around point completely. By the time I realized what had happened, I was halfway to the 5.0-mile turn-around point and figured I should keep going!
Unfortunately, my right knee gave me some trouble — literally, I can sometimes feel my patella grating. It doesn’t feel very good! I stopped about twice to walk it out and stretch, and then I seemed to be OK. But, this is a sign that I should NOT run tomorrow and need to do cross-training instead.
I came home and made a ginormous bowl of oatmeal.
I made my oatmeal with 3/4 cup oatmeal instead of 1/2 cup oatmeal due to my 400-calorie burn.
The toppings were literally overflowing! HOLY YUM!
My oatmeal contained:
- 3/4 cup oatmeal
- 3/4 cup water
- 3/4 cup milk
- 1 sliced banana
- Toppings: Sprinkle of Grape Nuts, sprinkle of brown sugar, 6 blackberries, tablespoon of sliced almonds.
Again – perfection in a bowl!
Musings From a Glowing Bride
So, you probably wouldn’t be surprised to learn that I’m addicted to online wedding forms (like WeddingBook through Facebook). I love reading about other people’s wedding woes, ideas, and recaps.
There was one post a while back in which a girl questioned whether she was "too fat" to buy a wedding dress. Apparently, her "friend" told her that as a size 20, she shouldn’t get a wedding dress and should just wear a pantsuit. Of course, the forum community erupted in anger at this so-called friend and told the bride that all women deserve to wear a wedding dress on their big day, no matter what their size. They also recommended plus-size bridal boutiques to visit.
A week later, the bride came back and posted photographs of herself in the wedding dress she ended up purchasing! She looked BEAUTIFUL, very happy and positively glowing!
I was thinking about our (and when I say "our," I mean our culture’s) obsession with looking "perfect" on your wedding day. I can’t tell you how many girls have written on the forums about crazy crash diets or the "best" weight-loss pill.
Of course, I understand our desire to look our best on our wedding day — but the size 20 bride PROVES that it’s not your physical appearance that counts, but its the glow that shines from within, a reflection of your happiness and love. Corny, but true.
On my run today, I was mulling over the fact that I can’t really remember the last time I thought negatively about my body. Truly. Even when the dressmaker told me I needed to drop 5 lbs. to fit into my dress without alterations, I didn’t feel *bad* about myself. It’s almost surprising to me, because even a year ago (at goal weight), I would stand in front of the mirror and pinch my sides or crunch up my tummy and criticize. And suddenly… I just DON’T ENGAGE in that kind of behavior anymore.
How did I get here?, I asked myself this AM. After all, for so many years I just WISHED and PRAYED that I could be happy with myself, that I could fuel my body in a healthy way and respect myself enough to indulge like a woman should without feeling guilty. I reached this point by refusing to focus on my physical appearance, and switching my focus to running races and setting new personal records. I stopped thinking of myself in terms of how good or bad I looked, and I began to think about how STRONG I was or how FAST I was becoming.
For a while, I had to "remind" myself to think this way. I nipped negative thoughts in the bud before they could grow into a full-blown self criticism. I repeated healthy mantras. And then suddenly… my conscious thought choices actually became my unconscious thoughts!
I’ve never been happier. I finally got out of my own way. I truly love my body, my life, my health.
How do you view your body? Have you switched your mentality? Are you trying to learn healthier behaviors? What’s worked and what hasn’t work for YOU?