A weird side affect of blogging about your life is that you accidentally end up appearing happy, shiny, and perfect. I can only talk about my own experiences with blogging, of course, and it’s not that I don’t want to ‘be real’ on the blog, it’s just that sometimes, it’s really hard to be totally honest in such a public forum. Friends and family read my blog, so I can’t always lay it out there as I could if I were anonymous. And, of course, being judged by strangers sucks, too. My skin is thick, but it’s not impermeable!
Hence – all of the bad stuff that triggers judgment gets stripped away, and bloggers often only focus on the happy stuff, thus appearing ‘perfect.’ But we’re not perfect. We’re people.
Hi, my name is Caitlin, and I’m an actual person, not a blog-autobot.
In the spirit of being human, I will tell you this: I have really been struggling emotionally the last few weeks. I have a history, personally and in my family, with depression so I’m hyper-aware of emotional shifts. But I’m not sad – more than anything, I’ve been anxious. Like, totally-overwhelmed-and-crying-in-the-shower anxious. I suspect a root of my anxiety is hormonal (damn those birth control pills). I’m taking steps to get my anxiety under control, but I want to share one little thing that has really helped me lately: DRAWER ORGANIZATION.
Okay, okay. I know that drawer organization is not the magic cure to psychological issues, but I have to say that it’s really been helping me when I’m in the midst of a mini freak-out. In the very least, it’s healthier than listlessly watching hours of HGTV because I deal with it. I swear, cleaning something small helps me process.
Drawer Organization 101:
- Acknowledge that you feel anxious (or mad or sad or bored).
- Open a messy drawer.
- Remove all the contents.
- Clean the drawer with a wet cloth.
- Go through contents. Identify the junk and toss it out. Breathe deeply.
- Place all the remaining contents back in the drawer.
- Feel very zen as you close newly organized drawer.
In other news… I had a delish wrap for lunch. Hummus, sprouts, basil, tomatoes, cucumbers. Loads of goodness.
Now – does anyone have a drawer they’d like me to sort through?
Organization in general makes me feel a lot less anxious, too. Whether it be a drawer, a cabinet, a closet, or a room, I just feel a whole lot better about life when things are they way they should be.
I hope you start to feel a little less anxious. 🙂