My goal is to be in bed in twenty minutes (9:45). Let’s see how I do!
Mid-afternoon snacks included granola and yogurt (yes, I had this for breakfast, too).
Nuts and raisins:
And an orange:
Dinner was also eaten in parts (can you tell I’m a grazer?). I had a Barney Butter sammie around 5PM:
Celery and carrots at 7:30 PM:
And now I’m inhaling veggie soup:
Tonight, I posted this Operation Beautiful note….
And it reminded me of this e-mail, which I received on Sunday. It really touched my heart (I cried at the kitchen table when I read it). I want to share it with you all because it truly reminds me how powerful these little post-its can be. (I suppose this e-mail could be a little triggering if you have an eating disorder, so please read with caution. But it has a happy ending!)
I just wanted to let you know how your site has helped me. I am seventeen years old, live in Canada, and was diagnosed with bulmia when I was fourteen. I began my first diet when I was eight. I have spent my entire life working to be "perfect" and thin. It has ruined my life.
My teeth have almost no enamel on them left, my heart rate and blood pressure goes from too high to too low weekly. I get ECGs and blood tests at least once a month. I have spent my last two summers in hospitals and have missed part of my grade ten 11 and 12 year due to being hospitalized. I can’t stand up for very long with out my vision going black and getting dizzy. My hair fell out a few years back. My fingers nails turn blue and I’m always cold. I can’t go out with my friends anymore I get to tired. I have wasted so much time and truly put my health at risk and I still can’t stop.
The reason I’m writing you is because on Friday, I was at my weekly hospital checkup and one of my therapists made me eat a 500 calorie meal, which I haven’t done in ages, to "de-sensitive" me. I was on my way to the bathroom to throw it up after my appointment. I had just locked the stall when I saw a sticky note on the back of the door. It said, " You’re beautiful. You’re good enough. www.OperationBeautiful.com." No one has ever said that to me. I didn’t throw up that day. It was the first time I ate something solid and did not throw it up in years.
I plan on plastering the Eating Disorder Treatment floor with Operation Beautiful sticky notes. :)
You never know who will read your Operation Beautiful note. There are no coincidences.