So. Confession. In the last month, I have fallen horribly and almost completely off the healthy living bandwagon. In the 8 or so years since I got healthy, this has happened a few times, but I have to admit that itâ€™s never felt as â€˜severeâ€™ as this time around.
It started a few weeks ago. I was coming off my Half Marathon success and felt great. But I quickly became super stressed out with deadlines and work commitments. Plusâ€¦ taxes were looming. Taxes are a very big deal when you own multiple small businesses â€“ we were suddenly playing catch-up with bookkeeping and inventory, trying to reconcile monthly statements and income reports. Also, I seriously hate numbers. So I was knee-deep in all sorts of work stuff, trying to juggle being a mom and running the householdâ€¦ exercise quickly fell by the wayside. I will say that, in general, staying healthy as a mom feels much more challenging than it did pre-childâ€¦ thereâ€™s just so much more to think about and not as much schedule flexibility. Anyway, my exercise faltered, and then â€“ as Iâ€™m sure so many of you can relate â€“ healthy eating quickly followed. Lots of coffee to get awake and stay awake. Lots of sugary cookies to jolt my energy up. Excuses, excuses. But I was really stressed out.
And there wasnâ€™t ONE BIG DECISION to fall off the wagon. It was one day of, â€œOh, weâ€™re so busy â€“ Iâ€™ll take some time offâ€ that turned into another day that turned into another day. I was still making it to the gym, but I was mostly mindlessly spinning around on the indoor bike or the stairclimber while I read a book or texted friends. Sure, there were a few good workouts and a few veggie-rich meals (and those definitely made it onto the blog, so maybe my fall didnâ€™t look as severe to readers!). But if healthy living is a balancing act, my scale was tipped WAY OVER to the â€œthis is not how I want to live my lifeâ€ side.
And then â€“ I caught myself thinking things like, â€œTomorrow, Iâ€™ll work out for realâ€ or â€œTomorrow, Iâ€™ll eat better.â€ Always tomorrow. Never today. Iâ€™ve always told myself that each morning, each meal is an opportunity to honor your body, but I kept putting it off.
So after a few weeks of stress, serious couch time, and way, way too many French fries, Iâ€™m finally ready to say – no more tomorrows! I desperately need more balance in my life. More healthy!
Yesterday, I drank 80 ounces of water and ate a great mix of protein and plants. I went to bed EARLY (9:30 â€“ take that!) and woke up feeling great. I had promised myself that Iâ€™d run a 5K, but when I peeked out my window, I was so disappointed to see that it was POURING. A river was running down the road! I almost thought, â€œNah, tomorrow,â€ but I stopped the idea before it could even form. TODAY. TODAY. TODAY.
I pulled on a hat and did a 5K on my favorite route in the chilly downpour. I only stopped to walk once up a big hill and during the last few minutes â€“ I was so winded! Itâ€™s amazing how fast cardiovascular fitness disappears, isnâ€™t it? But Iâ€™ve always liked starting at or near the bottom after a breakâ€¦ Itâ€™s a great reminder of how far you can go, as long as you can commit yourself.
Commitment. If â€œtomorrowâ€ has been my mantra of late, â€œcommitmentâ€ is my new one! I really want to get back into running regularly (Iâ€™ve got a big race scheduled in June!), and I need to start preparing for late summer triathlon season. The time is NOW â€“ not tomorrow. Iâ€™m ready to get back on track today.
So â€“ Iâ€™m putting this out there to the universe. This way, Iâ€™ll feel accountable to someone besides myself! And maybe â€“ just maybe â€“ thereâ€™s someone out there whoâ€™s been saying â€œtomorrow,â€ too. Maybe youâ€™ve been saying it for a few weeks or a year or even a decade! But thereâ€™s a point where you have to decide that tomorrow is today. Iâ€™m ready to re-commit. Are you?