I want to say THANK YOU for all the support about my LEEP procedure. The blog world always surprises me because everyone is so supportive and kind. I don’t want to needlessly scare other women who have to have the LEEP done in the future, as I received many e-mails from people who’ve gotten it and said it was no big deal.
I think it just depends on how sensitive you are to pain. Today was definitely the most painful medical procedure I’ve ever had. I actually hyperventilated from nerves at one point. I tried to draw on my yoga practice to put myself into a “happy place",” but it didn’t really help. Luckily, my lovely Husband went to the appointment with me and held my hand. 
He is taking care of me the best way he knows how, which includes wine:
Dinner (I ate half; I wasn’t feeling very hungry):
He made Fettuccini Alfredo with vegetarian meatballs and green beans.
And loads of ice cream!
He also recorded a special on Britney Spears and her top music videos. He really does know how to make me feel better!
Maggie watched in rapt attention. Did you know her middle name is Britney Spears? And yes, I painted her nails the other day:
Other snacks of the afternoon included an un-photographed apple and a bowl of granola + blackberries with almond milk:
Off to bed I go… I’m exhausted.
Thanks again for all the virtual support!
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Maggie is looking cute! Those nails are FIERCE!
ugh sorry you had to go with the procedure but I’m glad you are able to blog! I had a part of my cervix biopsied and seriously felt like I would never walk again. I am so sensitive to pain! How will I ever give birth? GAH
Your husband is sweet to take care of you. I hope you are at 100% (or close to it!) tomorrow!
I am glad that you are feeling okay now and also that it’s all over…enjoy the ice cream and Britney Spears!
Congratulations on getting this behind you. Such a scary thing. I’m glad you didn’t have to go through it alone.
Glad to hear you are on the mend!! Ice cream makes everything better – always
You’re wonderful! Thank you for blogging about this experience. Sending you healing energy.
Glad things went well. Ice cream and wine. You really are in good hands lol
I can’t BELIEVE I never thought of painting my dog’s nails.
Congratulations on being super brave through your procedure!
Last year I had my wisdom teeth removed (obviously not the same thing) and because I had all four way up there, coming in sideways into my other teeth, it was SUPER painful. I was swollen, Fat Albert style, and could just barely open my mouth for two weeks.
So embarrassing to go out of the house with a swollen face!
Fast recovery – love Britney!
ugh wisdom teeth are BAD.
I’m glad you’re feeling better, you are very lucky to have such an amazing hubby!
lol @ maggies nails. Were you really bored?!
OMG, Maggie-Britney’s nails….you crack me up! And the hub taping the Britney Spears special for you is great. What a great pair you make.
oh, and feel better soon…sorry, was distracted by the doggie goodness
Feel better soon! Britney ,nail poilish, wine sounds like a good TLC.
Hubs is such a good caretaker.
Sorry it was so rough. At least it’s over now! Wine makes everything better.
Caitlin, remember- you are stronger than you think!! Feel better
Aw, I’m sorry it was so tough. Sounds like your husband takes good care of you.
Ice cream and wine make everything better!
So glad you made it though the procedure! Hope your spirits are up tomorrow!
You’re very lucky to have such a great caregiver for a husband — it sounds like he’ll make a great doctor!
Glad the procedure is over, and I’m so sorry it was so painful; I have no tolerance for pain myself, and am terrified of childbirth as a result!
Enjoy the rest of the night with your lovely lady!
Feel better soon! I’m so glad you made it through the procedure…just rest up! Wine, ice cream and a little love from the dogs should hopefully get you back on your feet
I hope you feel better! What a sweet husband! And I love Maggie’s nails
Oh man, I am glad its over and you have all of the key components for recovery (ie WINE!)
I love Maggie’s Pink nails!!
And I’ll ALWAYS love Britney!
I am so glad to hear the procedure went well!!!
And I cannot believe you painted Maggie’s nails!!! LOL – you crazy girl!!!!
I’m glad that the procedure went well. Your husband was so sweet to take care of you today. I love the special on Brittney (she rocks to listen to on runs!) and how you painted Maggie’s nails!
Enjoy your restful night!
Danielle
glad the procedure went well! I hope you get some good rest/downtime tonight
Rest up and feel better soon!
Hope you are more comfortable in the morning girl!
Glad to hear that your procedure went okay!
Hope you can get some good rest tonight and are feeling better in the morning!
I’m cracking up at Maggie’s nails… there is NO WAY that my cat would ever let me touch her nails (claws? haha) for that long… well, that or she would just lick off the polish as it went on
I hope tomorrow is a better day for you. One word of advice – take it EASY tomorrow. Like I said, I was asleep for my leep and obviously it was painless, but the next day I decided to go to the Chicago zoo. Needless to say, walking around for 6 hours was NOT a good idea.
I had no idea Maggie’s middle name was Britney Spears, but that’s hilarious! Love it.
Take care, hun! So awesome your husband is being so kind and helpful
Feel better sweetie! I am glad that the procedure went well and am sorry that it was painful
Your hubby is doing a great job taking care of you though. Dinner looked fabulous, but I agree, ice cream would totally be my choice after going through what you did.
Get some rest!
Feel better!
Wine and ice cream can pretty much make anything better. That and bacon, but obviously not in your case!
hi caitlin. glad youre doing a bit better, though wine will never fail
i had a ? for you…
what channel or network was that britney collection on? love love love her videos! i used to memorize the dances and do them. yup, awesome factor through the roof.
it’s a new channel called FUSE hd
Awww sweet girl! I am so sorry about the painful experience. I am sure it was not only phsycially paniful but horribly akward as well. Not fun!
Okay, this may make you smile. Without thinking I am a total freak, I had such a crazy dream about you the other night. No no no, nothing like that or anything, but you were sitting on my couch blogging and drinking wheat grass. Then, you randomly jumped off my couch, and started doing laps around my kitchen. LoL sooooooooo weird!
I guess the connections we make with blogging really do effect our everyday lives. See, I’m even dreaming about you! 
Hope you feel better soon sweetie. Take care!
HAHAH lol that made me smile. i have dreamt about bloggers before, too!
Aren’t husbands wonderful
You’ll feel better everyday
sorry it was so painful for you:(
Glad hubby is taking good care of you! Hugs!
Yay, glad to hear you survived and that you are being taken care of. Feel better soon! Maggie’s nails are too cute
One of my girlfriends had the LEEP procedure and it wasn’t a very pleasant experience for her either. I am glad for you it is over with, and that you have a fantastic man to take care of you!
And for real – could Maggie BE any cuter?!?! I love the nails!!
Glad you’re okay
Hope you feel better soon! Your husband sounds like a great guy.
I’ve had a very similar painful painful mini-procedure done and I felt EXACTLY like you – I got angry. I took care of myself and I know plenty of women who didn’t take care of their bodies nearly as well as I did and they were fine but I wasn’t. So I threw a pity party, healed and now I don’t take my health forgranted. So it’s perfectly fine to feel angry, in fact I encourage it so that you can feel that emotion and then come to realize that this emotion serves no good and move past it. The pain (and anger) pass and you remember that there are people way worse off than yourself and you get back to your beautiful life!
I am sorry that you have had to go through this. I hope you start feeling better asap. I applaud your honesty and openness. It takes a strong person to be able to share this with the world.
Maggie is a true diva. She is so adorable!
Take care of yourself! I’m sorry you had to undergo such a scary procedure.
glad the hubby is treating you well
jenna
Maggie’s nails are fantastic! Sounds like your hubby really knows how to take care of you. Wine is almost always the answer…;)
Sorry it was so painful for you.
wow 44 – you loved.
I hope you are well tonight.
Are you liking your new camera?
Your wine picture is really good.
loooove the new camera!!!
hope you get a good night sleep and feel much better tomorrow. dream of britney!
Glad that the procedure is behind you! I always have to try to actively calm myself down, but sometimes having someone else for support really is the best thing – thank god for your husband!! Hope you’re feeling back to normal soon!
Glad the procedure went ok with no complications. I bet it feels great to have that behind you!
that’s for being so honest and sharing this ordeal with everyone.. it is very necessary to talk about.
enjoy your ice cream and wine and i hope you feel a lot better. Lastly, maggies nails, OMG HOW CUTE!
glad things went well! ice cream and wine are cure-alls. dont know about the britney though
maggie is such a sweetie! i am sure she will help you feel better!
Mmmmm…I love all the comfort food! Your hubby is doing such a stellar job!!! Feel better soon and all the best
Feel better, dear. Are you still in pain or was it the actual procedure that hurt?
Painted dog nails? You make me laugh daily.
Sorry to read that it was uncomfortable, but at least it is over. And yes, coming to the obgyn, the Britney, and ice cream are DEFINITELY signs of love! I wish all men treated their ladies this well (considering all we often have to go through). On the flip side, I always try to shower my boy with attentiveness, motivation, and whatever else he seems to need. There are few in the world who treat us really, really well, and love is rare and should be treasured with care as such.
Get some rest, Caitlin (sorry about the typo from earlier… I can spell when I’m not typing at 124673648 wpm, lol)!!
all women deserve britney and ice cream after the obgyn, if that is what they crave!
i was just thinking about you and this situation this morning on my run, wondering where things stood. you have definitely been in my thoughts. medical procedures can be very intimidating, but i’m glad you are feeling some relief in having this behind you.
i also think it’s great you are opening the discussion of women’s health. i think, as women, we tend to put others ahead of us, and this includes our health, ranging from daily care (diet and exercise)and emotional health all the way to medical issues. and then, for you to be so open about something that, because of outdated taboos, is not discussed comfortably (vajayjay – love that word, by the way!) is very selfless of you.
and, finally, what a great husband you have!!!!
hope your healing continues quickly!!!
Aw, the Husband and Maggie are doing a great job in helping you recover! I’m glad the procedure went “well” relatively I guess! and hope you feel better soon!
I am so sorry that you had to have a LEEP! At least it’s all behind you. Your husband seems to be taking great care of you. Enjoy the ice cream!
I have to go for a colposcopy next week and am beyond scared…it’s my first abnormal pap smear and even though my doctor told me it will probably be negative, I’m still nervous. I really really admire how brave you were today for the LEEP and hope to be have as brave myself next week.
oops I meant to say “half as brave.”
Hope the night is going well and that TLC is helping. hugs hugs.
Maggie is SUCH a diva
Well glad you got through it. LEEP, not to be confused with BLEEP (=Blog Peep). Bummer it hurt.
OK, so I request that Maggie BS has her nails painted in silver glitter nailpolish for the holidays just like any other hot chick.
Sorry to hear you hyperventalated a bit. I remember when I had my procedure done, the nurse asked me if my heart was beating exceptionally fast, and I said “no”. Then, before I knew it, it was… turns out the medication they used causes that sometimes. Take your time healing.
huh. i wonder if that was it for me – they just used local so i doubt it. i think it was the fact that i was really scared and forgot to breathe LOL
Aw I’m sorry that it didn’t go so hot. But at least it’s over and you can watch Britney
You are so brave!
What a sweet hubby you have
Sending lots of well wishes your way!
That bowl of granola, almond milk and blackberries looks too good!!
Hey chica, I’m sorry to hear that the procedure was so painful. Not that there is a “good” area of our body for surgery, but that area is just so sensitive. I hope that Tuesday brings you a little relief. Your husband is such a sweetie.
Thinking of you.
I’m glad everyone is taking care of you. Rest and relax and heal fast. You are so brave for sharing all of this. Thank you Caitlin.
I hope you feel better soon. I’m so glad you have such a sweet husband taking care of you. Thank you for being so upfront about everything you are going through.
Haha, glad to know that I am not the only one who paints my dogs’ nails:)
Feel better soon!
I hope you feel better ASAP! Hang in there and think happy thoughts!
I read your blog everyday and I just love it! But this morning I laughed out loud when i saw you painted your pups nails! HAHA Very Nice!
I know I’m a day late, but I’m glad to hear the procedure went well. I get super nervous for pretty much any type of medical procedure…even regular PAP smears, haha. I hope you start feeling better soon!!
Oh yea, and a little Edward Cullen always makes me feel better.
So glad to hear you’re done with it, and that you had an amazing hubby to be there for/with you. You are in my thoughts. I am very glad you’re sharing this with us and being so open. You are a strong woman. Rest up and hope you’re feeling better soon.
I hope that you feel completely better soon! Glad that the Husband and puppies are there to help you through such a trying experience. Keep your chin up–you’re an inspiration to so many people! Don’t forget that! <3
My thoughts and prayers are with you while you heal. I’ve been through surgery for similar situations and it’s difficult and scary. You feel like you don’t deserve it, like you’re too young and that you’re too good to yourself to need that kind of treatment. However the biggest blessing past the pain is that you know you are doing the healthiest thing you can for yourself. I will be thinking about you.
P.S. Keep your eyes peeled in the mail in January for a wedding invite
!!
SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO excited for the wedding
Hi Caitlin! Sorry I didn’t get a chance to comment yesterday to give you my well wishes about LEEP
I am so glad it is behind you, and your hubby is just so sweet! Looks like he is taking excellent care of you 
Veggie meatballs look great…maybe he can take over some of your blogging duties one post and post the recipe?! 
they are just the pre-made kind.
so glad it went okay!
love the painted nails! i always want to do that to my dog but he’s a boy….and he’s straight. actually, i take that back, he’s bi and will pretty much hump anything that moves! haha!
Hi Caitlin!
I just looked up on the internet what was the LEEP procedures. Last week (on Wednesday) I had something similar done ,which is a cryotherapy (it has same results), however I did not find much information about cryo in english (vs plenty in french). Both are to remove abnormal cells from vajayjay (I will remember this one lol). And after reading about your surgery I guess that both were as painful and annoying. However, I did not feel any angry about it. There is not much we can do about, against or in prevention of it. I just figured that I am doing my part of the deal by getting a PAP test every year. My doctor told me that he is removing them (the cells) in prevention cause they were not to be harmful. But he said that he wouldn’t take a chance. It WAS painful (the procedure and the right after). I got to bed right after and slept for 14 hours straight (!) so I will not feel the cramps. And I DON’T feel comfortable in this area since. But I keep reminding myself what the doctor told me : better be safe than sorry…!
It’s good to hear that you’re husband took care of you! Ice cream makes many things better
Glad things went well with your LEEP. I’ve had the surgery twice now – once in the doctor’s office with a local and then 6 months later, this time with general anesthesia. Long story short, I had the same reaction as you during the in-office procedure – I started hyperventilating, broke out in a cold sweat and thought I was going to pass out (if I wasn’t laying down I probably would have) – basically a panic attack on the table! Once I found out I had to have the procedure again, I opted to be put under for “sanity” reasons. I was MUCH less nervous and didn’t have any of the anxiety pre-op that I did for the in-office procedure. It’s been 3 years now, and luckily no more abnormal paps since then – but I am on a first name basis with my OB/GYN now since I had to see him every 3 months for checkups for the first 2 years post-surgery.
One thing that made me feel better was knowing that this is the MOST COMMON procedure done in my OB/GYN’s practice aside from child birth. Scary to think so many of us have to deal with this issue, but good to know that it is easily detected, easily remedied, and doesn’t render us unable to have children.
Fingers crossed that the first time’s a charm for you!
So far the most painful thing I’ve gone through is a toothache. Within a couple of days I was BEGGING for a root canal!